To Die For

Imagine you were a fly on the wall at a dinner between the mafia, the CIA, and the KGB. That’s where this unprecedented story begins. A journey through the dark world of Russian intelligence where, for the first time, a professed “sex spy” tells her story. All of it. 

Host Neil Strauss (Rolling Stone, The New York Times) brings listeners into the dangerous world of sexpionage, where enemies of the State are not the only victims. So too are the spies themselves, brainwashed to believe that their bodies belong to Russia and meticulously trained to become “the perfect weapons.” Who is Aliia Roza? From the creators of the hit podcast series To Live and Die in LA, this is To Die For.

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  • IBobby k
    WOW
    I wish there were more episodes! I didn’t think it was my jam but wow. I will listen more than once! Everyone should listen to this podcast. This could explain why we are where we are as a country in this pivotal time in America. AMAZING! She is one tough woman!
  • Jorashtim
    Enthralling!
    This podcast totally exceeded my expectations. Everything from Tenderfoot is amazing so I thought I’d give this one a try, even though the description didn’t sound like anything I’d be interested in. But WOW! This show captivated me. I was hooked after the first episode and I binged it all in 3 days. Definitely give it a listen!
  • Caroline1271
    Love
    At the end of this incredible journey you asked what is a hero - and what we can take away from this. I took away that love can win - thank you Aliyah!!!
  • CourtTx proud
    Best podcast ever
    I’ve never listened to a podcast in its entirety until now. I can wait for the next episodes.
  • Anna Lorenzo2
    Wow wow bravo Aliia Roza
    Wow, I just have to say, I couldn't stop listening to Die for podcast with Aliia Roza! Her story is so captivating, and I really appreciate her for opening up about her traumatic past. It honestly helped me a lot as I deal with my own stuff. Plus, I’m super curious about those spy techniques she learned in the Russian intelligence service! I checked out her Instagram too, and it's amazing to see how far she's come. She's such a success story! I can’t help but wonder if her techniques could help me find my own path to success. Aliia is definitely a true role model for me. Thanks, Aliia, for sharing your incredible journey! I can't wait to learn more from you!
  • BKTwin1
    Fascinating!!!
    Can’t stop listening !! WOW.. what a story! A must listen, will blow your mind from beginning to end!
  • billthick
    Twenty stars
    Best podcast ever
  • MamaJadeo
    Wow fascinating story and interesting woman
    This was so mysterious and loved the podcast. Everything was a+++ the woman is also very interesting. The whole story is mind blowing. I’m so sorry this woman had to endure so much.
  • avidlistener47
    A story to pay attention to
    Incredible story. Wishing her well and all the others with stories just like hers that haven’t been heard or purposely silenced.
  • Teeny Moore
    So fake
    This podcast is sooo obviously fake so it’s not even fun to listen to. At multiple points it makes no sense and her story contradicts itself. I wanted to like but sadly couldn’t even enjoy as fiction
  • mossa24
    One of the Best Yet
    I just finished listening to this podcast and I highly recommend it to anyone who wants to step outside of themselves and listen to a heartbreaking story of survival, love, heartbreak and constraint. It is so beautifully revealed, with compassion and skepticism, admiration and sobriety. Very very well done.
  • Birgittenyc
    Meh
    She wants to make money. Don’t believe her. It’s boring
  • m339693
    Do not waist your time
    Nothing but false information. It should be advertised as erotic fantasy.
  • _luxlisbon
    Um…
    I don’t understand why we are pretending this story is true. There might be details here and there that are based on facts, but the narrative arc is really obviously manufactured for self-promotion. This is amateur fiction.
  • Crazybananananas
    Nicely produced but too horrific
    The descriptions of horrific sexual abuse were too much to make this entertaining. Makes me hate Russia even more.
  • fortefiamette
    Maybe a Little Jaded
    This podcast is really well-done and is fantastic with the story-telling. I greatly appreciate the honest discussions around doing what is needed in the moment to survive, and then struggling with the decisions and complicated feelings associated with the actions you took to survive. But I will also say that it has brought to me an unexpected (and likely unintended) side effect. I binged this podcast right after the 2024 US election; while this is probably not a healthy take-away, it did remind me of the power that we as women have and how strong we are despite what we go through. For the moment, it has empowered me as a woman during a time where I’ve felt all power has been taken away from me.
  • Cyclep
    Well Produced, Where’s the Journalism?
    The production is there. The story is there. It’s engaging. But then there are moments that give pause. Finally, there’s hardly any effort made to corroborate Aliia’s story. What the heck?! Vice actually did a documentary on her two years ago and they were left skeptical of the whole thing. C’mon, Strauss! It’s becoming apparent that Tenderfoot is more concerned with entertainment and ad revenue than actually helping victims.
  • Maria Elaine
    Incredible Podcast whether you believe her or not
    Well done!! I think you could’ve easily done a podcast pinned on truth/fiction but as you mentioned, there is truly no way to completely fact check this. So as your own experience began to shift the objective of the podcast, it grew into a much more intriguing story than I could’ve imagined in the beginning. The choice to shift the focus to allow her to tell “her” story vs. “the” story is what made this a transformative experience for you, her & the listener. As we (hopefully) begin to understand trauma & how it manifests differently from person to person, being able to come to the resolution & realization at the end that although some of the things she said (and truly believes) may not have occurred the way she described them doesn’t necessarily mean it’s calculated deception. But is rather a coping mechanism for someone who experienced deep trauma. Allowing the listener to make their own decisions regarding her believability was more impactful than investigating every statement she made. I did appreciate the occasional expert as it did provide fascinating context & grounded her story in reality. For what it’s worth, I believe a vast majority of what she said. I’m so proud of her for being so vulnerable! That’s true bravery. And also, since I heard you read these - I liked the “behind the scenes” episode. I think a slight peek behind the curtain doesn’t curtail the magic. Nice work!
  • 1sheek1
    AMAZING!!! 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼
    Your podcasts are always my absolute favorites! I was literally hanging on every word. Loved hearing about the spy missions. I could listen to the two of you all day long. Please do more seasons! You are a podcast genius!!!
  • Holubyho
    One of the top shows!
    Even though her story sounds incredible, I believe her because none of this sounds too crazy for Russia. Neil Strauss handled the story with utmost respect - letting the victim tell her full, uninterrupted story. I couldn’t stop listening! When is the movie coming out and who’s gonna play Alia?
  • Ismith91
    Wow… Just wow
    Episodes 1-9 had me on a roller coaster of emotions. I love a woman who can take the worst situations and manipulate everyone who ever caused her pain. Episode 10, though… Just prepare to be completely broken. I saw the ending coming, but that did nothing to prepare me. Aliia Roza deserves nothing less than peace and happiness after that.
  • gabby1984ww
    even if you don’t believe her
    i couldn’t stop listening. Sometimes i didn’t believe her. sometimes i did. it’s hard to know what really happens… when you live in another “world” another country where you would never be in that situation, it’s hard to understand or relate. i hope the life she lives today is making her happy. and i hope she heals.
  • turk781
    Well, she said it so it must be true
    Aliia describing combat in the 2nd Chechen war when she was a soldier “He (her comrade in a combat zone) touched me, he rubbed my shoulder, and said now. Then he pressed the trigger and he shot the enemy. He said to me it’s simple, now it’s your turn. I saw through the scope, I saw the face with a beard and with the hat. He said do it now. I pressed the trigger and it was silence and I didn’t look again and closed my eyes. Then he told me good job. I laid there for maybe an hour.” I shortened this a bit but this is word for word what she described doing in war, at night, with a gun she doesn’t know the name of and didn’t know how it worked. 🤣 Great journalism!
  • yrmdt
    Incredibly compelling, with some reservations
    I loved this so much that I binge-listened to the entirety of this harrowing story in two days and probably will listen all over again. The five star review is due to how compelling the story is, and how truly moving it is to hear Aliia describe every gut wrenching experience under a truly evil, messed up, cynical regime where, at least for women, sexual misery and psychological torture seems to exist by design. As other listeners mentioned, it feels like she lived a hundred lifetimes in one. Here is where I fault the podcast: there was a hint at the beginning of the series that we were going to examine ways in which Allia may, at times, be an unreliable narrator, but that never paid off. I fully agree with believing victims of abuse and allowing them the safe space to tell the story from their own perspective. She was 100% victimized, and it was so important for the podcast to bring the therapy angle into it. But there’s also a very deep fear of questioning anything at all in these cases, even when there are some massive holes in the story. This isn’t just a regular, run-of-the-mill person we’re talking about; this is purportedly a professionally trained spy whose entire craft is deception, seduction, and manipulation. There are very few instances in which the host questions or pushes further where the story trails off or gets confusing, and very few outside opinions questioning fuzzy parts of the story, motivations, etc. in any way. This needs a follow up to flesh out what’s been left out.
  • Amwlovesdinos
    Vulnerable, healing, emotional…
    This is story telling at its best. Listening the story organically unfold and evolve through vulnerability and trust was beautiful and poetic. I found many comments disheartening. After all the vulnerability, care, and empathy put into the story telling, it’s fascinating that anyone could focus on “creditability.” This story underlines the long term, damaging effects caused by abuse, human trafficking, oppression… all by using a first hand experience. This is a women who bravely bared her soul. The continued challenge of a woman’s credibility regarding sexual, mental, and emotional abuse is a sad study of society. I do agree with the mid roll ads. I understand the need for adds and appreciate the free access to this wonderful story, but they would be better at the beginning of the episode in a situation like this.
  • coyotechick
    Speechless
    This podcast is heartbreaking, terrorizing, unbelievable - a horror. The tenderness with which the story is told is so kind of the storytellers. I wept. I felt revulsion and I don’t think anyone would ir could of trated this material with mire delicacy and respect.
  • Rathcosm
    It’s addicting
    It’s very well done, informative, suspenseful and interesting. We really enjoyed it.
  • lisaanw
    Tone deaf, cringe worthy and embarrassing treatment os serious subject matter
    Imagine creating a series of interviews that addresses human trafficking, rape, torture, the mass murder of civilians, and additional atrocities of war as well as psychological coercion interspersed with sexual performance ads, the in the style of James Bond gimmicky soundtrack and other inappropriate ad placement. It was cringe worthy at best. Apologies should be forth coming for all persons adversely impacted by the serious nature of the subject matter presented.
  • RaeMM2024
    You’ll be hooked
    Several times I was thinking, “This woman lived a lifetime in 25 years.” I found myself tearing up with her when she describes some of the traumas and her voice breaks. You are so aware, through every episode, of her humanity and the desperation of having to make choices when either way, somehow you lose. You never know who is good or evil, and who will betray you. By the end you just want to take her by the shoulders, “You did it; you made it. You’re HERE.” I love the special experts who came on board to provide context to her narrative. The last episode analysis was helpful, too, and I’d listen to another if Neil provided one in future podcasts. Well done team.
  • Great podcast 001
    Best story best podcast
    This woman life is amazing story. sorry for her pain!
  • catemcaran
    Phenomenal!
    Great reporting, narration, story —everything!
  • MomOfARedHead
    Wow. 🙌🏻
    Wow. What an amazing podcast. I definitely started skeptical but then I was quickly swept away in the story and found myself missing listening to her voice. So well done.
  • eli98118
    One of the best
    It’s not one thing. It’s gender justice and struggle, geopolitical, personal trauma and survival, and f-ing riveting. Could t stop. Cried, cheered, exploded.
  • MN Mark
    To die for (inside)
    Excellent podcast in describing the challenges and discoveries encountered in producing the series. They should make a movie to get wider distribution of the ideas, goals, experiences, and revelations this podcast covered.
  • Nabdjendndj
    1 Question
    The story is amazing and well done. However, she talks about every women in the military was being victimized by men in some way. If her father was military he would have witnessed this as well. So he would have known what he was sending his daughter into.
  • lolaindigo
    Incredible story, insulting ads
    This is such an intense and moving story, as fascinating as it is sad. What’s really unacceptable is that such a deeply horrifying topic can be so jarringly interrupted by a gleeful jingle about skincare products or subscriptions for pet toys. If you have to have ads, for god’s sake get them out of the way in the beginning. Don’t pepper them throughout such a tense story. It’s just insulting and tone deaf. I don’t know how many more episodes I can get through if this keeps up.
  • emannd1990
    Binge Worthy!!!!
    I couldn’t stop listening to this podcast. Seriously one of my top 5 favorite podcasts I’ve listened to. I’m sad it’s over and could totally see myself listening to it again in the very near future. I even listened to the interview episode, which I never stick around for and found it very interesting and loved his take on everything. 10/10 highly recommend!
  • gamor5
    Bingeworthy
    This is such a compelling story told by a fantastic writer. Such an interesting story of manipulation. You see this portrayed in movies but don’t think about it occurring now. Another great series.
  • Nicksfan88
    Yes, it’s a terrific story
    However, I still have a lot of questions. I’m just not sure how credible she is. For example, after the horrific beating she described toward the end, how did she not require serious medical treatment. The basic premise of a state-trained seductress/assassin is believable, but much of the story seems like a noirish novel or film. This may or may not be rooted in fact, but it is a helluva yarn.
  • Leslee D!
    Wow!! I couldn’t stop listening!!
    What an incredible story! Neil - you are my favorite podcast host and the best story teller. I cannot wait for your next podcast!
  • 65AmyD
    Compelling story told with grace and humanity
    Going in I thought this was kind of a Russian "lady James Bond" spy story. Wow - couldn't have been further from that; it was a million times better. This podcast is as deep as the ocean. I hope it has helped Elena find some measure of peace.
  • dougparsons23
    I don’t know
    I would’ve bought the whole story if it weren’t for this last bonus episode. The second I hear safe spaces and being oppressed, I automatically think someone is pandering, and then I find out the host was or wrote a book on pick up artists, now it feels like he’s doing damage control and trying to cancel some karmic debt.
  • -dot--
    Check facts
    How can someone who went through these much traumas became an “influencer” millionaire in LA?? Do some facts checking before wasting time here.
  • TKVanSant
    Amazing story, beautifully told
    I literally could not stop listening. Even through the hard parts. This woman has obviously lived an incredible life, through unbelievable hardships. The trauma is real. But you keep saying “but she made it through to tell the tale…” Thank you for sharing the story with us Aliia.
  • OaksKP
    Wow.
    This whole story had me in shock the entire time. What a strong woman. Thank you for helping tell her story!
  • Abi22683
    Riveting story!
    Very interesting story. Very well told by Neil who handled everything with the most delicate care during the entire show from start to finish. Impressive podcast host, writer, and producer. Clearly exceptionally talented. The story itself had some extremely sad parts but as a whole her journey is a testament to how much we can overcome and survive.
  • JJBravo01
    Story filled with ambiguity
    It seems to me that the entire story is a ploy to get attention or to make a buck. If this woman was truly a agent of the SVR or FSB she certainly wouldn’t be shining a spotlight on herself or the tradecraft she was taught. It feels as though bits of the story is being written as she tells it.
  • WhitneySimpson
    Interesting story
    I found this to be a very intriguing story and slightly less believable as the show went on. I do hate how it ended though. Would love to know more about what happened to her parents, how she ended up here, etc. Overall, a good listen just slightly skeptical of it all.
  • Fatima Nasir Bachkami
    What an incredible story! Path of a Hero!
    Very interesting and inspiring story how one can take all the challenges of life and turn them into their Power! Well well Done! Thank you for sharing your story with us!
  • Hollywoodsherm
    Amazing how you survived!!
    Aliia, your narrative is astonishingly incredible. The manner in which you survived and endured such a harrowing ordeal defies description. Your resilience and indomitable will to persevere are truly extraordinary. I found this audiobook profoundly compelling. Thank you for sharing your remarkable story. Mike,
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